questions with/out answers

whom shall I serve? how shall I spend my time? who best to spend it with? what do I pray for? what do I dream toward? do I have to pick only one? how do I know that I can keep going in one direction long enough to build something? how do I move from being like a fountain to becoming like a river? how do I start moving again when i’ve been at (what seems like) a very long standstill? how do I know the difference between steady treading and stagnation? how much of it is mine alone to figure out, how much is divine leading? who can tell me where to go / what to do next? can anyone? how will I know when it’s right? how do I know if it’s wrong? how do I lean in when I’m not sure which thing to lean into? how do I move from surviving to living again? how do I do the next right thing instead of just the next thing? what if I never learn to do things differently? what if balance is forever out of reach? what if all I ever do is dream and not act? will I matter ?

Yes, you will matter, and what’s more — you already do. Just take whatever step is before you to take today. Only today. Only one step. You can, and you will.